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Thank you guys.
It is so hard to keep up a facade of being more ok than you are. Obviously my folks know I'm struggling but I still have to play this role of the happy cheerful guy for extended family and friends....and my parents don't know the full extent either. It's tough. It makes me that much more tired but I don't want to worry them any more than I already am.
I haven't been on here in a while, I have nerve issues in my arm that makes using a computer or phone really hard after being on a computer at work all day.
Austin I'm so sorry to hear about what you're going through. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. We're all pulling for you!
Dealing with a lot. I lost dad on July 4th and at this moment. I don’t know how I feel. I really wasn’t close to my dad for many years and part of me wish I had that chance to talk to him again. I always dreaded getting a call from my stepmom saying he had passed. My half brother tried getting me to call him last year. I tried a couple of times and never got a response each time. So I gave up.
Thank you, groupie. Sorry to hear about the nerve in your arm. I know what that's like. I'm glad the neck surgery took care of mine. It really sucks.
Shun, I'm so sorry for your loss.
Oh, Shun! I am so sorry about the loss of your dad! Although your relationship was complicated, it is such a hard thing to lose a parent, and what might have been. Prayers for you and your family.Quote:
Originally Posted by shunlvswx
Hey everybody, just letting you all know I did well with the procedure. I was partially incorrect. I had not only a VNS (vagal nerve) but also a DBS (deep brain) stimulator placed at the same time. I thought it was one or the other. Anywho, what I can say is that it might be too early to call but I think I am starting to feel better. Today I was laughing with family for the first time in a long long time. If it stays consistent and doesn't just dissipate a week later like everything else did and gets even better this will have been worth all the heartache holding strong while I tried so many different things. I'm a bit of a pessimist by nature or at least a skeptic but I think this might be working so I'm holding hope that it will but I have to be prepared for anything.
Oh, I'm so glad for you, Austin!:blueblob: I pray that this is the answer you have been looking for!!! Enjoy this time with your family and know that there are further developments to come!:hug: Hang in there and Rock On!:guitar:
Just an update for everyone -
I've been doing a lot better with the nerve stimulator. I still have blah days but overall I'm happier most days and that dark cloud of suicidal thoughts has been completely lifted which is wonderful.
I'm still going to take it as it comes but I'm hopeful for the future and consider myself lucky to have made it through this because I was truly close to ending it all.
So happy to hear about your progress, Austin. We should never underestimate the power of positive thinking. Hang in there and keep focusing on taking care of yourself. :hug:
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Originally Posted by WalshFan88
I am so thankful and thrilled with your progress, Austin! Onward and upward, and don't look back! Every day is a new day to start your life over, and nothing is impossible! We can forget in the darkest night, that the sun is always shining, and will shine on us again, thank God! :hug: