Quote Originally Posted by sodascouts View Post
Thanks guys. I feel so conflicted... I want to get over it, but I don't want to get over it either, you know? I don't want to act like nothing has changed when everything has changed.

I feel like changing the banner is getting "back to normal" and that somehow feels wrong, but... we have to move on sometime... I don't know. I just don't want to let him go, but I know I have to.

I guess I just need more time. I thought a month would be enough, but I'm still crying. I want stop crying, but when I do, does that mean I'm forgetting him? I don't want to forget him.

And I feel that when the day comes when I finally do take it down, it will really be over. And I don't want it to be. Not ever.

But it already is over, isn't it?

And I'm crying again.

So... not yet.

PS Thank God that there are people here who understand and don't judge me for being so sad about the death of someone who wasn't related to me or my close friend. It really helps.
Nothing to do with the Banner Soda, but that is EXACTLY how I am feeling too. I know realistically we all have to move on at some stage. My whole life thats left cannot be the blur that the last 6 weeks have been. But it seems wrong and disloyal to Glenn to envisage a world that he is no longer part of when he was so much part of my world up to now. I just cant get my head around this at all, and I totally agree that the fan community here on the Border, and on FB are great in that we can allow each other to grieve and come to terms with this in our own time and in our own way. Thank you everybody