Quote Originally Posted by sodascouts View Post
Thanks guys. I feel so conflicted... I want to get over it, but I don't want to get over it either, you know? I don't want to act like nothing has changed when everything has changed.

I feel like changing the banner is getting "back to normal" and that somehow feels wrong, but... we have to move on sometime... I don't know. I just don't want to let him go, but I know I have to.

I guess I just need more time. I thought a month would be enough, but I'm still crying. I want stop crying, but when I do, does that mean I'm forgetting him? I don't want to forget him.

And I feel that when the day comes when I finally do take it down, it will really be over. And I don't want it to be. Not ever.

But it already is over, isn't it?

And I'm crying again.

So... not yet.

PS Thank God that there are people here who understand and don't judge me for being so sad about the death of someone who wasn't related to me or my close friend. It really helps.
My dear, I do not know you but what you said here is so heartfelt and so heartbreaking that I feel I want to say a few words to you. Yes, most of us here understand perfectly and, far from judging you, we feel connected to you because of our shared sadness. Your fear of bringing the curtain down forever on Glenn and all that he meant to you is very real. As long as the feelings are raw and alive, he is not quite gone.

On one of the following pages I posted some thoughts that my wonderful old mum shared about the aftermath of grief. She said that the chaotic sadness right after a loss is not the worst part. The worst part is when life goes back to normal and there is just emptiness where the person and the sadness were. We do eventually have to leave the dead behind because life wants life. And that is the most painful truth.

However, music and musicians are among the magicians of our world. By some wonderful alchemy, Glenn, his beautiful voice and music will be with us forever. The day will come when you will be able to listen to his music and not weep. Perhaps not yet but we are here for now to share your sorrow and maybe a few good stories along the way. Glenn liked stories so he would approve.

I send you my warmest wishes and thoughts - and thanks for giving us somewhere to go to express such surprisingly fierce feelings.
my own tribute to Glenn was posted on another thread but can be found here:
http://janettegriffithsonwagner.blogspot.ca